i really want a tattoo. i mean, i've always said it, partly meant it, but now, i really want one. actually, the permanent part scares me the most, even more than the pain, which is amazing because if you know me at all, you'll know i'm a big baby (i nearly pierced christine's hand with my fingernail digging in while my navel was being pierced). or maybe this is just a phase. i don't want to be some wrinkly old woman with a faded tattoo that looks terrible after 50 years. but i really want one now! i sound like i'm 12 or something.

so i was looking at kanji characters because the only thing i can think of as a tattoo is a chinese character. but i don't want to be fobby so i chose kanji instead (yeah, i know, big difference, wow erika, you're not a fob now).

pardon me, i'm rambling.